`Monday, December 06, 2004;__
see doctor.
argh cant slp the whole night!
i switched off my com at arnd 12 plus
last night. (is early) okay so deceided
to watch tv , but i dun hvae the mood.
so went to bed. but i cant slp i miss
him too much i guess. pics of him
keep floatin on my mind.
till 3 plus and i managed to get some
slp but not long coz i woke up at 5plus..
and from then on i didnt slp anymore..
and i started to think abt the past again.
haiz so arnd 7.10 my hp suddenly vibrate..
guess who send the msg? is HIM...
oh mann at least he still have the heart
to tell me tt he is leavin for camp and
ask me to takecare ? okay and stuff..
so yep was kinda happy then so replyed
him and stuff so waitin for him to reply
back again but he didnt till 11 plus.
okay so nvm i'm still happy.
oh den suddenly i saw a lizard
a damn small lizard in my room..
oh gosh! i hate lizards and i scare of them?
yea they r disgaustin.. yuckks..
so i kinda scared so quickly ran out of the
room and wake them up.. haha to get
rid of the lizard.. eeekkk.... gross...
okay so went to see doctor AGAIN ..
okay this time jus to take some
medicine coz i had finished them all.
oh and the doctor said i'm still havin
low blood pressure.. lk wtf mann.
he said i dun have enough blood and
i nid to take medicine till i get enough
blood? and till my blood pressure is normal?
eekkk the medicine is s o sucky and i nid
to take for lk months and months? fuckk mann..
haiz i'm such a weakling mann.
i nidd medicine every in order to survive.
to have a better health. i hate myself!
seriously i really hate myself sometimes!
okay so wadever it is i've been slackin
the whole day. and life gonna sucks even more
till 9th dec i guess. haiz his camp till 9 and
veron went for chalet till8 .. argh.. life suck lahh..
-baby i miss u i'm too lost in u
rite now i nid u more den ever-
`_______LISTEN TO MY HEART_______;__ 5:24 PM;__
